We were walkin downtown along Jones Avenue whilst the rain was pouring. And in the streets i saw beauty. A lot of people were walking with their umbrellas above their heads, cars chasing tail lights and streetlamps illuminating the dark and wet road. The night was cold and together with two of my friends, that late night stroll was quite a sight. So i took out my cellphone and snapped shots ignoring the raindrops that were sprinkling onto my phone screen. But after each click, right then and there i wanted to cry because i believed i could have taken better photos if i had a better camera. These are the only decent ones i could bear to upload.

Before we got ourselves to cross the final intersection and get a ride, i passed by a couple hugging each other tight, trying to save themselves from being wet because the freakin umbrella they had was so small that the two of them barely fit. They were standing along the curb, waiting for their ride. And their scene was indeed picturesque. They looked so beautiful together with the background but i didn’t have the courage to take a shot of them because i know already that my cheap phone camera would just ruin the sight.

Let me share my LSS for the week :)

thoughts about it:

the music video is just amazing. the dancing couple just reminds me of So You Think You Can Dance. and i declare that i am starting to love Hayley and that i think the next David Guetta is no other than Zedd himself ♥ and watching Hayley’s eyes in the music video is the most amazing things. it feels like she’s dragging me or that there’s something she wants to say with those expressive eyes. i just love it, no more, no less.

Chocolate Cake

Sunday, November 3, 2013 is declared one of the most frustrating days of my life. Not that most of my days are not frustrating but this day is one of the highlights cause again, i had lost self control. Which (in case you don’t know yet) means that i have ate a lot more than my usual food intake. I don’t have to talk about that much because just becauseee. So yeah right now, i am so upset with myself. Earlier today i also (again) felt sorry with myself about living this crappy life. While i was washing the dishes for the third time today, i think about a lot of things as per usual. And as per usual, i think about me living the life i don’t deserve. I really believe that i deserve more ─ way more than the life i am living right now. That is why i am never contented of the things i have as of the moment. I dream of living in a better place, living a better life that is in comfort and away from people who treat me like i am non-existent.

Yesterday, I started scribbling each and every thought that crosses my mind so that i won’t be able to forget them and i’d be able to write them here in my blog whenever i wanted to.No matter how random they are, they might come handy sometime.

That’s all for now, i must sleep early coz wez be goin hill hikin tuh-morrowwwwww :3 goodnightssss x♥x♥x

Untalented

It doesn’t make sense to me. Why I always feel like there’s something I must do but I just can’t. But when I look back at myself, I then realize that I can’t do anything because I’ve got nothing. No talent to share. No money to buy props. No confidence to show. No audience to amaze. I feel like a writer who doesn’t have a reader, an artist without an audience, a painter without a poster paint, a chef without a critic, a photographer without a camera. I am so frustrated I can’t do anything about my present situation. My mind is full of things that I can’t handle. It’s oozing with ideas that’s dripping on the ground. And it’s left to be nothing but another patch of dirt you can step unto. Please tell me, am i that untalented?